There was not much time left for midnight and the night sky above the city of Delhi looked beautiful. It was the last week of June with the first rain of the season not much late. A slow gust of wind with moisture was blowing intermittently. The stars were having their own meeting in the sky. Thousands of feet below them was I lost in thoughts with no rational outcome.
No matter how hard I tried to get out of the situation the result was same. I was entrapped in emotions of someone for whom I don’t matter enough to stay. Friends would often say ‘come over it, stop thinking’ but I was not absolutely wrong in remembering that particular person. Just because there are things people don’t value doesn’t mean my actions are meaningless. The world doesn’t disappear when you close your eyes. Does it?
You can feel these extreme moments even if you don’t want to. You put these memories together and you get the feel of a person. It’s enough to know how much you miss them and how much you hate the circumstances which took them away.
Failures in life lead you to do things you are not meant to do. The mind subconsciously knows that nothing will be same as before. This develops an unknown depression, a sense of hatred for everything. You end up crying all night without understanding the reason for it. You come to realize that there is no way out.